Dear Eureka,
Thank you for welcoming my letter. I have always felt that letters and emails are an ideal way to connect with people. I like to think things through before sharing my views, and writing gives me the time to do that. Although this letter is addressed to you, it is also a conversation with myself, and I enjoy that process.
I first came across you on Weibo and was drawn to your photographs. Your eyes were so expressive, with the energy and charm of a Japanese idol from the 1990s. But what interested me most was the music and writing you shared. In secondary school, I used to write about growing up on Qzone, though most of it was adolescent self-pity. When I got older, I felt embarrassed and quietly deleted it. As an adult, seeing someone willing to share herself so openly makes me admire that courage. Your writing, though, goes beyond the melancholy I remember in my own. There is real introspection and thought in it. Reading your words has given me new ways to understand relationships and experiences I thought I had already figured out.
I find that in many conversations, people are simply repeating information they have heard elsewhere. In your writing, I can see what happens when the outside world passes through a particular personality: how you understand the world, how you interpret love. It feels fresh, and much of it resonates with me. It is like visiting a photography exhibition. When someone lets me see the world through her lens, something catches the light in my own attention.
Another unexpected discovery is that your honesty about yourself has been influencing me too. Perhaps out of self-protection, I rarely reveal what I really think. My father is a businessman, and from an early age he deliberately encouraged me to be reserved and composed. Those qualities taught me restraint, but without my noticing, they also made hiding my inner world a habit. I tend to prefer solitude to building close relationships, and spending time with people often leaves me drained. Yet I feel I can be honest with you. Admittedly, I sometimes have to do a little extra reading to keep up with our conversations, so that I do not come across as too clueless. Even so, talking with you feels easy, without the usual mental strain of socialising.
For a long time, I feel I have not really formed a close connection with anyone. I think a connection between two people is something both must keep choosing. A bond grows naturally only when both are willing to reveal themselves and pay attention to each other. That is why this curious chance encounter with you matters so much to me. I hope we can meet in person one day. Perhaps we will feel like old friends straight away; perhaps reality will be quite different from what we imagined, and we will become strangers again. Either way, I am happy to accept wherever life takes us.
Warm wishes,
Joey